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(Contains: violence/gore, strong language and ideologically sensitive material)
"Once upon a time I was child-like

I was a cute little bastard, one of a kind,

Looking through the telescope at the star light,

Standing in the windy fields without a friend in sight..."


As I walked through this life of seething pain, spilling so much blood, it was pouring like rain. I never pondered at the thought of what I could possibly gain in this circular existence of hatred and misery, like an animal unchained.

Baby, you know I kept on running and gunning, building up this false image of where I didn't need anybody, I was stunning and cunning. Bullets were flying and the tides were rising, and yet all I could think of was:


"Once upon a time I was child-like,

I was a cute little bastard for the longest time,

Without a drop of sickness in this blood of mine,

Now I have a heart left dark, and scarred by life"

I often wondered why I'd get carried away, every time I'd drop kick some stranger that got in my way. Were they helping me? Where they fighting me? I could never ever tell, it's hard to see life for what it is through a hard-ass thorny shell. Beyond this shitty life, I knew something was missing, didn't need a single memory to know that, every time I'd be reminiscing. Not to be dissin', but I felt unworthy every time you and I'd be kissin', no matter how much we fought, no matter how little we slept in bed, I could always count on you to listen, so I said:


"Once upon a time I was a kid, alright?

For the life of me I can't remember what I was like,

Something about telescopes, and lights in the sky at night,

A part of me is here, but I don't feel right...

Baby, it feels like I'm living half a life."


Fighting my inner demons, I bled and I wept, regretting every promise I made, but never kept. My lungs lapped at the burning air. I never looked back, I tried not to care, as I stood in the middle of a raging inferno somewhere. I punched and I kicked until my bones were exposed, no hangover I ever had made me feel this sick, but that's the way it goes. With the last of the monsters dead, I fell to the floor, as my vision began to fade, I saw a bright light coming from an open door. Who knew that getting to paradise would be this much of a chore, fighting life at every turn, with hands full of blood and gore?

I never thought it would feel so great to be dead, then from the light, you gave me your hand and said,


"Once upon a time you gave me a beautiful life,

It was full of pain, but it was yours and mine,

Baby I won't let you go, it's not your time,

Not until you find the other half of your life..."


So now I walk on with you in my mind,

It sure does feel great to rest and unwind...

But in the dead of night, I look up to the somber sky...I gaze at the starlight and I can't help but cry. The jack ass inside of me screams "God damnit, why?!" when I look to my left and you're not by my side. I think to myself I can't wait to die, so I can go to you and say "Once upon a time in my bloody life, I saw magic in the sky at night..."
Updated December 12th, 2013

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Also, HOLY FREAKING CRAP! Thank you all so much for making this a daily deviation! Such an awesome surprise!! :squee:
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Given 2013-12-31
Half a Life by ~Psychoscissor ( Suggested by MisDmeanor and Featured by inknalcohol )
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StarrfishLove Featured By Owner May 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Wellp! You made me cry! 
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Really though this is one of the most beautiful things that I've ever had the pleasure of reading. It's very emotional and you do a wonderful job of portraying that emotion in a way that can easily be related to the life of any individual. Completely and utterly phenomenal. The flow was fantastic, and the syntax was suburb. You, my dear friend, are amazing.
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner May 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
lol, thanks dude, I'm flattered that you read it XD
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merlioske Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013
this is truly an amazing gift that You shared with this community... thank you so, so much for that...
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
lol, thank you so much, I really appreciate the comment. You really made my day :)
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HarleyPoo2 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
HERLY SHIT DIS IS AMAZEBALLS
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LeonessKLN Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Photographer

I was thinking Eminem when I was reading this, it would sound

so good with him singing it! :D

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thefunny711 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2014
ME TOO
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kuku88 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh wow; an Eminem song was playing when I started reading and I imagined hims inning it too. xD
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LeonessKLN Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Student Photographer

Yeah, it reminded me of song's like

Love the way you lie and monster!! ;D

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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Eminem would do a decent job, I'd think...

In truth though, when I made this one, I was listening to "I'm coming home" by P-Diddy at the time of it's conception, so in truth I feel that P-Diddy would do the best job singing this.
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moving--shadows Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
That was fucking amazing
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nikkittie Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013
This hits home like crazy. Very well done, congrats on the well deserved DD.
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, I really appreciate it! =D
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SapphireMC Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
this...
is
fucking
beautiful
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy you liked it :P
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SapphireMC Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
;u;
It's amazing
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zuki12013 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Digital Artist
My icon is the bat version of yours xD
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SapphireMC Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
haha
yeah i know 
X3
I saw yours and in the 'more' section saw mine X3
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zuki12013 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Digital Artist
xD
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SapphireMC Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
yeep lawl
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starrysky963 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist
This is gorgeous. I love the repetition and rhyme scheme. The imagery is stunning as well. Lovely work. :heart:
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, I'm happy that you enjoyed it :D
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Icy-Xx Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
awesome love it great job it actually made me feel like I was this person it took my breath away!
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bubblybumblebee1 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
That was...beautiful TTnTT
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Yay! Glad you liked it :happybounce:
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Fr3ak53ter Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student General Artist
That was beautiful :)
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, glad you liked it :D
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lintu47 Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Congrats on the DD! :dalove:
Have a nice day and a Happy New Year :heart:
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, and same to you :squee:
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lintu47 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
My pleasure, thank you :heart:
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Shenzan Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This made me cry...this is almost exactly what I am living now.
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry to hear :(

Things will always get better, it's hard to wait, and it's even harder to get up and go with the flow, but in the end, if you keep moving forward with a hopeful, positive attitude, then things will get better eventually :)
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Shenzan Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Lol this boy...we are so weird. We were just making out now. And I thought it was over. XD
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
VERY powerful, well done. I had Linkin Park in my head the entire time I was reading it, could really imagine them singing it.

Some of the wording seems slightly off, though - you're jumping between very refined language and slang words, sometimes it just won't fit together (e.g. "reminiscing" followed by "dissin'"). The flow and rythm is beautiful, though.
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Truth be told, I pictured P-Diddy singing this one :)

And I hear what you're saying about the wording. See, I actually made this peice for a character in one of my literary projects outside of DA, so in essence it's taken from his point of view. A lot of the time when I write something based on a specific character I've made, I forget that others may or may not see the same thing that I'm seeing.

At the same time, I have the misfortune of seeing things one way and thinking they're great, but then when I come back later, I realise how they actually sound, as if I'm simultaneously focused and unfocused.

I really appreciate your comment, you've given me a bit to think about :)
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I can totally relate to the double viewpoint, I get a similar feeling with my art. When I'm not struggling with art block, that is. :/

I'm always a bit hesitant to voice critisism, I know how hard it is to accept negative feedback on something you've poured your soul into. I'm very glad I didn't hurt your feelings :)
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You'd have to work harder than that to hurt my feelings XD

You should never be afraid to voice criticism, but at the same time, you should always take great care in making sure to be fair in what you say. In my old account that I deleted, I always did reviews of other people's art, and while I may not have always been positive, I did my best to be fair about it, and not to point out every single little thing I didn't agree with.

As long as you're fair about things (which you were :)), you should e fine in voicing constructive criticism.
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Saerileth Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Solid advice, I'd say. :)

Good luck with your craft, your writing is beautiful.
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bioeve Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist
I don't know what to say except that... that's really beautiful. I especially love the last line. 
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I think my favorite part is his fight with his inner demons
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Regal-Pinion Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The way I read this reminded me of an Aesop Rock kind of flow. 

Well done. :)
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Had to look up Aesop Rock, 'cause I didn't know who he was XD

After watching his "None Shall Pass" video, I see what you meant. That was the kind of vibe I was shooting for with this one.

There's another guy that Aesop Rock reminds me of though, one you may have heard if you're in the UK (I'm not, but I listen to various music). His name's "Akira the Don", or "A. K. Donavon", and the way some of his music flowed is similar to Aesop Rock.
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Regal-Pinion Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Nice. 

I had to look up Akira the Don. So now we're even. :laughing:
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MisDmeanor Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow.. just, wow! I am awe struck, I read that twice, it and it took my breath away both times!

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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
lol, when I showed it to my dad a while back, he said he couldn't stop reading it whenever he took a break at work :)

I am happy you liked it so much, thank you for your lovely comment :D
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MisDmeanor Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can totally see why he couldn't too, I have read it again lol it is sooo good!

It would be awesome to actually hear it as a song, you really poured the emotion into it,
tugs at the heart strings and brings tears to my eyes .. 

Extremely well done, I hope you keep writing! :heart:
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much :)

You don't know how badly I want someone to play it in real life, because the image in my head just doesn't do it justice :( . This one, I picture being sung by P-Diddy, and I can see it as a somber, sad, hip-hop song.

BTW, since you obviously read it multiple times, do you have any helpful tips, or any suggestions? I'm looking to expand on my craft here :)
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MisDmeanor Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome :) 

Thank you for that insight about P-Diddy, now I'll be able to hear a beat to flow with the rhythm when I read it :D

You definitely have the lyric writing hands down, I'm no song writer, but from a poetry perspective, the rhyming and flow are spot on. 
I would only make minor changes to some of the wording, here and there, not for the grammar but for the flow :)

I'd be happy to do that for you if you'd like :) 
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Psychoscissor Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
If you liked this one, I have another one right here: psychoscissor.deviantart.com#/…

While Half a Life was made with a specific artist in mind, Rebel of Redemption was made for a particular song, specifically "Devils Never Cry" from Devil May Cry 3 (if you decide to read it, you'll find a link to the song in the comments). While it may not be as good and/or powerful as "Half a Life", I think you'll find that when you read "R.O.R." with the song playing, you'll get a better, more full effect :)

I actually checked out your page after you commented the first time, and noticed your poetry corner. Unfortunately I didn't get a chance to read it yet, but I'll check'em out soon :D

As for having you do the changes, I appreciate it, but I prefer to tweak my own things. I however always welcome a second opinion to my stuff though, as someone else may catch something I may have missed, so your advice is greatfully appreciated :hug:
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